WOW: Saying Goodbye to Early Motherhood

Mar 19, 2018

I stand at the kitchen counter pulling cilantro leaves one-by-one from their stems.  I rarely put this much attention into prepping guacamole. Pluck.  Gently place.  Pluck.  And, place. The gathering of delicate greens grows into a soft, fluffy hill. I look through the open arch between the kitchen counter and living room to watch my…

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Noticing Fat

Mar 14, 2018

“Hello darkness my old friend, I’ve come to talk with you again.” – Simon & Garfunkel Amidst an otherwise still moment of gazing through a window at dunes that lead out towards the beach and a feathered blue sky, I notice a whisper from a dusty corner of my mind. “You’re getting fat.” My right…

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WOW: A Father’s Tribute

Mar 12, 2018

Wonder : a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable. This week’s experience of wonder came when I read a father’s tribute to his preemie son who had just left this world for heaven. Callen Jeremiah Rooney was born at 22 weeks. Although I am not currently on…

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What is Coaching?

Mar 7, 2018

Imagine. You have someone in your life that listens for your aliveness and champions your victories. This same person walks with you as you navigate challenges, holds you accountable, and helps you remember what you stand for when you’ve forgotten. She does all this with no agenda of her own but to support you in…

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WOW: Wonder, Wonder Everywhere

Mar 5, 2018

A sea bird with origami-like wings and a pointed tail soars up above; Flies over giant palm fronds dancing on trees in the breeze just north of where I am surfing. I look out to the horizon to catch wave number 19, Another lined up in perfect geometry. Short side toward the rocks to my…

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The Loneliness in Conformity

Feb 28, 2018

True belonging is not passive. It’s not the belonging that comes with just joining a group. It’s not fitting in or pretending or selling out because it’s safer. It’s a practice that requires us to be vulnerable, get uncomfortable, and learn how to be present with people without sacrificing who we are. We want true…

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WOW: “Mama, Mano”

Feb 26, 2018

As mandarin light climbs up and over shadowy peaks in the distance, rays of canary and maize outstretch like arms reaching skyward as the sun takes its first yawn of the morning. I breathe in a salted dewy mist as my daughter’s voice breaks the bird songs in the breeze. “Mama, mano,” she says. I…

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From the Aftermath of “Edie”

Feb 21, 2018

Growing up, I was one of those girls who people thought had it easy. I learned at an early age to strive for goals, achieve, and measure people’s value (including my own) on material things. I was rewarded well for the efforts I put on this outward success, and yet, they left “Edie” brewing. “Edie”(pronounced…

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WOW: Psychedelic Waves

Feb 19, 2018

Hues of strawberry, orange creamsicle and lavender swirl against varying shades of light, silver and grey to create a psychedelic glass over the open ocean. I drop the longboard from under my right arm so that it floats beneath my fingertips as I wade out into the water. Large seabirds fly through the sky, and…

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Choosing Love on Valentine’s Day

Feb 13, 2018

When I started on the path of choosing love almost a decade ago, one of the first questions I set out to answer was this: Can you truly love another if you don’t love yourself? I was genuinely puzzled by this question, but over time, I’ve come to understand that we can’t give what we…

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