Transforming our Creepy Crawly Home

May 6, 2020

At the end of September 2019, we moved into a little house on the beach in Southern Baja. We arrived to find the walls crawling with albino geckos – hundreds of them.  The bedroom wreaked of cigarette smoke even after I laundered the bedding and curtains and left the mattresses out in the sun.  At…

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Social Media Distancing

May 1, 2020

My daughter has been out of school and we have been sheltering-in-place for 7 weeks.  We have at least a month more to “quédate en casa” here in Baja California Sur. In March, I returned to social media to connect with loved ones and keep up with quickly evolving news during the pandemic. Now, I…

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It’s so weird: A moment at sunset during the pandemic

Apr 23, 2020

I am sitting on our second story deck with a mug of vanilla rooibos tea, local honey and warmed homemade almond milk that I finished squeezing from its nut milk bag just minutes ago. On the horizon, the sun is slowly slipping into its ocean bed for the evening. Waves rhythmically crash on the beach…

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The Miracle of Community

Apr 4, 2020

With each COVID-related blow to our sense of normalcy, I contract.  First, it was the acknowledgement that Dave might be away working at the hospital indefinitely; then the school closings; then the news of the California shelter-in-place; then our own shelter-in-place here in Baja. Today, the men who are building our house next door arrive…

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I Am Not Nervous Eating

Mar 26, 2020

Those who have known me for a while know that I’ve been outspoken about my long battle with eating disorders stemming from adolescent trauma, insecurity and experiences as a competitive swimmer. Back on social media now because of COVID, I was scrolling through my feed the other day and noticed a lot of posts about…

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My Favorite 2 Little Words

Jul 6, 2019

“Forget your perfect offering There is a crack, a crack in everything (there is a crack in everything) That’s how the light gets in” – Leonard Cohen The corners of blackout film we’ve applied to this bedroom’s large windows have started to peel back, lighting the room just enough for me to have a sense…

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Homeless

May 26, 2019

I am standing outside of the hotel ballroom I had entered less than half an hour ago as I followed a sign that pointed the way to a 10am church service. Traveling for the weekend with my two young children to my once-hometown of San Diego, I had the desire for a quiet moment with…

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A Day of Death and Life at the Beach

Mar 15, 2019

“How about we go to Palm Beach today?” Dave asks as I hand him a glass of the dark purple, nutrient-dense smoothie I’ve just prepared. “Sure,” I answer. An hour later, we are packing up the car, and he asks if I want my fins. “No, thanks; I’m not swimming in that water,” I reply,…

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Pink Medicine

Mar 7, 2019

I lower a needleless syringe, tip filled with gooey, bubblegum pink liquid, into my 3-month-old son’s mouth. His eyes, still blue, draw in mine, and my attention traces the edges of their almond shape. “Okay, my boy, it’s time for the medicine that will help make you all better,” I tell him. He smiles back,…

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A Baja-Style “Welcome Home”

Feb 12, 2019

We are back in Baja, where we lived for 9 months through June of last year. I am walking out to the beach for the first time since our arrival. My daughter, who I am pushing in a BOB stroller along the dirt road, drifts into her midday nap. As we arrive at the sand,…

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