Good Luck With That

My last stop today was to the studio where I will be holding a running a workshop starting later this month.  Holding a bag containing the fliers I wanted to leave for the studio owner, I walked up to the location, hoping there was someone there after business hours.

An artist wearing a kind grin and carrying a few paintings walked up right behind me.  Thinking he was going to the same place I was, I asked if he knew if anyone was inside.  He just smiled, and I tried the door.  It opened!

I dropped off the bag with a lady standing behind the counter and went on my way.  As I closed the door behind me, the artist smiled again and said to me:

Good luck with that.  You have good energy.  It’s going to go well.  Good luck.

Somewhat puzzled, I walked to my car, feeling as if he knew that I was dropping off fliers for the workshop when really all he saw was the plastic bag I handed over.

Driving home, I realized that the exchange with the artist is one of many occurrences I’ve experienced lately that didn’t seem to make rational sense.  Whether it was a synchronistic meeting or words from a stranger that made way too much sense, I can’t help but continue to realize there’s much more going on here than I was once open to.

Many times over the past year, I have had people refer to me as “very spiritual.”  To be honest, that reference took me aback at first.  Spiritual?  Me?  What?

I like (and still like) things that MADE/MAKE SENSE…the rational kind.  And I’ll be honest, there once was a part of me that thought people who talked to God were weak – as in they couldn’t do it all themselves.  It’s that same part that likes knowing that A will result in B and wants to know and see the tangible meaning of things, but what I find is that I am feeling my way through so much more.

Ever since I gave up living the life I thought I “should” be living about a year and a half ago…well, it all started with an ended engagement about 4 years ago now…things have been unfolding in mysterious ways.

I find myself often feeling like Alice in Wonderland, experiencing moments that seem all too surreal.

So call me spiritual – I do believe in something greater than us – an energy that unites us all.  I believe we are all a part of a bigger puzzle – that’s true.  And I also recognize that I do “talk to God” a lot these days.  And to my pleasant surprise, I don’t feel weak for doing so.  In fact, I wonder why I haven’t been doing this all along!

Still, there is a part of me that resists the idea of being so “spiritual” as if that’s weird or something.  Or perhaps, for me, it’s a very personal relationship that I don’t need exposed.  Like one of those, “Shhh, we don’t talk about that here.”

But how weird is that because this relationship is one that has been a big part of the transformation in my life.  I believe that there is a greater process guiding us and that my life is better when I am in communication with and honoring spirit – what I call the energy that flows through us and unites us all.  It feels funny to be sharing this through this blog, though I hope it helps others out there who might be approaching spirituality with a similar sort of curiosity.

As I continue this greater journey in service and in choosing love everyday, I tell myself what the artist told me…and to those of you out there doing the same: Good Luck With That.

I feel kind of naked right now.

2 Comments

  1. Stephanie on March 4, 2011 at 6:38 pm

    Funny, just as I was finishing this I noticed Neale Donald Walsch’s post on Facebook that read: Nothing in this universe occurs by accident. There is no such thing as an “accident,” nor is there any such thing as “coincidence.” He’s the author of Conversations with God, btw.

  2. Ruthi S on March 5, 2011 at 2:23 pm

    Steph-I greatly admire your willingness to be so open, vulnerable and honest in your posts. And the Neale Donald Walsch post…not just a “coincidence” 😉 xo

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